"I do not pray for success. I ask for faithfulness." ~Mother Theresa

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To Live in the Heart is not Spiritual Bypass

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“Love isn’t the work of the tender and gentle; Love is the work of the wrestlers. The one who becomes a servant of Lovers is really a fortunate sovereign. Don’t ask anyone about Love. Ask Love about Love…”

Rumi

One does not know the Heart if one does not understand that we, as humans, are designed to live in the Heart at all times.   Yes, it is possible.  Yes, it is our birthright. 

No, it is not naive seekerism.  No, it is not spiritual bypass. 

The disastrous correlation between living in the Heart and a perpetual state of bliss denigrates the Heart and misconstrues the Heart altogether.  

This correlation has been a successful manipulation tactic for the disintegrous spiritual communities, the uninitiated “coaches and spiritual mentors” and is the dangling carrot of successful indoctrination into nefarious religious cults- who have lost their root.  Patriarchy feeds on this correlation because it hooks into the deepest trauma loops and momentarily pascifies a longing for -fill in the blank.  

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The Intersection of Worthlessness and Racism

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Maybe you can relate. You have something to say but you are afraid of your words being minced inside mouths craving attention and regurgitated back at you with foul odor. Or, maybe you find yourself on long Facebook feeds, adrenaline pumping, reading the adversarial banter that has taken away 5–10 minutes, maybe years, of your precious life force. Or, you read something you know will be controversial and you begin to troll for the drama of that person being called out. Maybe, just maybe, you notice a quickening of pulse, a twist in the guts, and a lil something in yourself wanting to call them out, set them straight, make them wrong.

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The Benevolent Wound

Blog, Human Spirit, Trauma Healing

“The Sacred Wound is the critical act in which the mortal achieves divinity.”

Jean Houston

What if I told you that you can never fully heal.  That you can scratch to the bone, gnaw at your sinew and suckle your marrow and you will still feel an impenetrable, troubling, haunting itch.

But you will continue to scratch.  And although it brings temporary relief, the scratching has created a wound. But you keep scratching and covering the wound with “over the counter” tricks in hopes that it will heal.   Until one day you slip and fall in the ooze of the wound that is now inhabiting the landscape of your life.

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A Mother’s Voice

Blog, Human Spirit, Trauma Healing

I was asked by a man recently “how can you support yourself doing what you do?”  Why did you choose “these ways?”

I have never heard my Mother’s Voice.  It lay in decay under the headstones of her losses.  But, all decay can compost itself through worm dreams and seedlings and find its way to the light.   

She was silenced long ago and has been riddled with illness all my life.  I lost her young when I left my home, her and my three younger brothers behind.  It ripped her heart out and, yet, she knew I had to go.   I have wandered in the streets of my own dark night for decades in search of her touch, her song and a somewhere we could be together again.  Her story has formed much of my own narrative.  

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The Ancestral Portal

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Write the wrongs that are done to you in sand, but write the good things that happen in a piece of marble.  Let go of emotions such as resentment and retaliation, which diminish you, and hold onto the emotions, such as gratitude and joy, which increase you.  ~

Arabic Proverb

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A MESSAGE FOR OUR YOUNG MEN (AND A VULNERABLE SHARE)

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A couple of weeks ago I was asked by a man in the community, who leads Rights of Passage (ROP) initiations for young men, to gather a small group of wise women to speak with the new initiates and the men who are supporting them.  

He asked that the women come forth and speak about a wound, a blessing and share some wisdom around what we feel young men need to hear from us.  As the young men are 14 years of age he gave us an hour to honor their attention span.  

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Re- Mythed~ A Woman and a Tree

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Here is a picture. It might not seem like much to you. But as pictures go…

It is April 19, 2019, a full moon as well as my 42nd birthday. I have just emerged from initiation- a quest for life, vision and permission.

This is the only picture that was taken. I can hear my mama sayin’- “I can’t see your beautiful face”. Mama, look close and you will see My 1000 faces.

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Our Heart~ Our Womb~ Our Privilege

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“We do not care for what we do not know. We do not know what we cannot name.”

Sharon Blackie


When all women are in tune with and listening to their wombs and following their hearts, the Earth will restore to balance again… 

There is an amazing man in my life who has the sensitivities to feel into the feminine dynamics within himself and others.   In one of our heart to hearts he said~

“Women are the most intelligent species I know of.  Every woman knows what she wants in her heart.  If every woman listened to that voice, and followed it, life in and around her would restore to balance” 

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Words on Death and Nourishment from the Salmon Spirit

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It was a few months ago that I met the Salmon Spirit.  I was attending an Imbolc and plant medicine class and had an encounter with a plant that brought me on a journey to the sacred laws of reciprocity through the body and life of the Salmon.    A dream message that slowly revealed its lesson through lived experiences that awakened a full awareness of my impact on the whole organism of life.  (The full story will come forth as I allow myself to fully digest the gift of this insight.)

The Salmon is cross culturally symbolic as a totem of knowledge and reciprocity.  The Salmon’s journey and dream is one of service and initiation.  [Read more…] about Words on Death and Nourishment from the Salmon Spirit

Illness or Initiation?

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Illness or Initiation?

I was listening to one of my current inspiritors, Michael Meade, and he said something that plunged into my depths and re- affirmed this very present conversation I am having with my healing around what is really underlying my pain and trauma.

In summary he says:

“when you experience a life event that shapes the way you view and act in the world, that takes a piece of you- like severe illness or injury, death of someone so close to you, or some external disaster that rips apart a prior foundation on which you based your life- your Soul views that threshold as a signal that an initiation is about to begin”.

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Past Essays and Stories About this Human Life

Are Psychedelics a Bypass?

I remember a moment when contemplating another ceremony with Ayahuasca that my fear of Her taking away a wound deterred me from the ceremony. I have come to know how sacred my wound is. That it attracts the healing I need specific for my journey. I know that it holds medicine, and when felt, loved […]

Unconditional Love

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE In my early 20s I met a man that unlocked my heart entirely. Along with that unlocking came all of the things that locked it up. I let myself breathe with him into a dream we had of a life of wonder and intense, passionate love. He loved me so deeply. He loved […]

The Medicine is Always With You

Recently I held space for a woman’s transformation with the help of psilocybin. We met three times. First to prepare her, enter into prayer and set intentions. Then the day of ceremony where I was an angeling, present witness to her unfolding layers. And a follow up integration session to help her make new choices […]

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