(This is an old post but it felt relevant to have at the forefront again. Especially now as the emergence of another pathway, of the feminine arts and Sacred Laws, is cracking people open to seek answers for their empty and broken soul. Spiritual tourism is at an all time high. It’s a bit messy- like life- with all of the paper shamans and lack of integration and way too many “coaches”. And it is all totally where we are at and so it’s actually perfect.
“Love isn’t the work of the tender and gentle; Love is the work of the wrestlers. The one who becomes a servant of Lovers is really a fortunate sovereign. Don’t ask anyone about Love. Ask Love about Love…”Rumi
One does not know the Heart if one does not understand that we, as humans, are designed to live in the Heart at all times. Yes, it is possible. Yes, it is our birthright.
No, it is not naive seekerism. No, it is not spiritual bypass.
The disastrous correlation between living in the Heart and a perpetual state of bliss denigrates the Heart and misconstrues the Heart altogether.
This correlation has been a successful manipulation tactic for the disintegrous spiritual communities, the uninitiated “coaches and spiritual mentors” and is the dangling carrot of successful indoctrination into nefarious religious cults- who have lost their root. Patriarchy feeds on this correlation because it hooks into the deepest trauma loops and momentarily pascifies a longing for -fill in the blank.
Maybe you can relate. You have something to say but you are afraid of your words being minced inside mouths craving attention and regurgitated back at you with foul odor. Or, maybe you find yourself on long Facebook feeds, adrenaline pumping, reading the adversarial banter that has taken away 5–10 minutes, maybe years, of your precious life force. Or, you read something you know will be controversial and you begin to troll for the drama of that person being called out. Maybe, just maybe, you notice a quickening of pulse, a twist in the guts, and a lil something in yourself wanting to call them out, set them straight, make them wrong.
“The Sacred Wound is the critical act in which the mortal achieves divinity.”Jean Houston
What if I told you that you can never fully heal. That you can scratch to the bone, gnaw at your sinew and suckle your marrow and you will still feel an impenetrable, troubling, haunting itch.
But you will continue to scratch. And although it brings temporary relief, the scratching has created a wound. But you keep scratching and covering the wound with “over the counter” tricks in hopes that it will heal. Until one day you slip and fall in the ooze of the wound that is now inhabiting the landscape of your life.
I was asked by a man recently “how can you support yourself doing what you do?” Why did you choose “these ways?”
I have never heard my Mother’s Voice. It lay in decay under the headstones of her losses. But, all decay can compost itself through worm dreams and seedlings and find its way to the light.
She was silenced long ago and has been riddled with illness all my life. I lost her young when I left my home, her and my three younger brothers behind. It ripped her heart out and, yet, she knew I had to go. I have wandered in the streets of my own dark night for decades in search of her touch, her song and a somewhere we could be together again. Her story has formed much of my own narrative.
Write the wrongs that are done to you in sand, but write the good things that happen in a piece of marble. Let go of emotions such as resentment and retaliation, which diminish you, and hold onto the emotions, such as gratitude and joy, which increase you. ~Arabic Proverb