"I do not pray for success. I ask for faithfulness." ~Mother Theresa

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Boundaries are What Heal

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(AS SEEN IN REBELLE SOCIETY).

The healing we need requires Right Relationship.  Right Relationship requires understanding and upholding boundaries of Natural Laws.  We are a nation built upon abolishing boundaries and dominating Natural Laws.  

We are a people who cry when one little fu**ing “freedom (ie.distraction addiction)” is taken away.  Implying that the forces you so vehemently scream at for taking your rights are also the ones you believe give you freedom.   You’re so not free my friend and you just gave “them” power over something that no one but your creator has power over.  

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A Wolfe in Spirit’s Clothing~ The dangers of spiritual seeking.

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(This is an old post but it felt relevant to have at the forefront again. Especially now as the emergence of another pathway, of the feminine arts and Sacred Laws, is cracking people open to seek answers for their empty and broken soul. Spiritual tourism is at an all time high. It’s a bit messy- like life- with all of the paper shamans and lack of integration and way too many “coaches”. And it is all totally where we are at and so it’s actually perfect.

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To Live in the Heart is not Spiritual Bypass

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“Love isn’t the work of the tender and gentle; Love is the work of the wrestlers. The one who becomes a servant of Lovers is really a fortunate sovereign. Don’t ask anyone about Love. Ask Love about Love…”

Rumi

One does not know the Heart if one does not understand that we, as humans, are designed to live in the Heart at all times.   Yes, it is possible.  Yes, it is our birthright. 

No, it is not naive seekerism.  No, it is not spiritual bypass. 

The disastrous correlation between living in the Heart and a perpetual state of bliss denigrates the Heart and misconstrues the Heart altogether.  

This correlation has been a successful manipulation tactic for the disintegrous spiritual communities, the uninitiated “coaches and spiritual mentors” and is the dangling carrot of successful indoctrination into nefarious religious cults- who have lost their root.  Patriarchy feeds on this correlation because it hooks into the deepest trauma loops and momentarily pascifies a longing for -fill in the blank.  

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The Intersection of Worthlessness and Racism

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Maybe you can relate. You have something to say but you are afraid of your words being minced inside mouths craving attention and regurgitated back at you with foul odor. Or, maybe you find yourself on long Facebook feeds, adrenaline pumping, reading the adversarial banter that has taken away 5–10 minutes, maybe years, of your precious life force. Or, you read something you know will be controversial and you begin to troll for the drama of that person being called out. Maybe, just maybe, you notice a quickening of pulse, a twist in the guts, and a lil something in yourself wanting to call them out, set them straight, make them wrong.

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The Benevolent Wound

Blog, Human Spirit, Trauma Healing

“The Sacred Wound is the critical act in which the mortal achieves divinity.”

Jean Houston

What if I told you that you can never fully heal.  That you can scratch to the bone, gnaw at your sinew and suckle your marrow and you will still feel an impenetrable, troubling, haunting itch.

But you will continue to scratch.  And although it brings temporary relief, the scratching has created a wound. But you keep scratching and covering the wound with “over the counter” tricks in hopes that it will heal.   Until one day you slip and fall in the ooze of the wound that is now inhabiting the landscape of your life.

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A Mother’s Voice

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I was asked by a man recently “how can you support yourself doing what you do?”  Why did you choose “these ways?”

I have never heard my Mother’s Voice.  It lay in decay under the headstones of her losses.  But, all decay can compost itself through worm dreams and seedlings and find its way to the light.   

She was silenced long ago and has been riddled with illness all my life.  I lost her young when I left my home, her and my three younger brothers behind.  It ripped her heart out and, yet, she knew I had to go.   I have wandered in the streets of my own dark night for decades in search of her touch, her song and a somewhere we could be together again.  Her story has formed much of my own narrative.  

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Past Essays and Stories About this Human Life

Are Psychedelics a Bypass?

I remember a moment when contemplating another ceremony with Ayahuasca that my fear of Her taking away a wound deterred me from the ceremony. I have come to know how sacred my wound is. That it attracts the healing I need specific for my journey. I know that it holds medicine, and when felt, loved […]

Unconditional Love

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE In my early 20s I met a man that unlocked my heart entirely. Along with that unlocking came all of the things that locked it up. I let myself breathe with him into a dream we had of a life of wonder and intense, passionate love. He loved me so deeply. He loved […]

The Medicine is Always With You

Recently I held space for a woman’s transformation with the help of psilocybin. We met three times. First to prepare her, enter into prayer and set intentions. Then the day of ceremony where I was an angeling, present witness to her unfolding layers. And a follow up integration session to help her make new choices […]

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