Here is a picture. It might not seem like much to you. But as pictures go…
It is April 19, 2019, a full moon as well as my 42nd birthday. I have just emerged from initiation- a quest for life, vision and permission.
This is the only picture that was taken. I can hear my mama sayin’- “I can’t see your beautiful face”. Mama, look close and you will see My 1000 faces.
“We do not care for what we do not know. We do not know what we cannot name.”
Sharon Blackie
When all women are in tune with and listening to their wombs and following their hearts, the Earth will restore to balance again…
There is an amazing man in my life who has the sensitivities to feel into the feminine dynamics within himself and others. In one of our heart to hearts he said~
“Women are the most intelligent species I know of. Every woman knows what she wants in her heart. If every woman listened to that voice, and followed it, life in and around her would restore to balance”
It was a few months ago that I met the Salmon Spirit. I was attending an Imbolc and plant medicine class and had an encounter with a plant that brought me on a journey to the sacred laws of reciprocity through the body and life of the Salmon. A dream message that slowly revealed its lesson through lived experiences that awakened a full awareness of my impact on the whole organism of life. (The full story will come forth as I allow myself to fully digest the gift of this insight.)
The Salmon is cross culturally symbolic as a totem of knowledge and reciprocity. The Salmon’s journey and dream is one of service and initiation. [Read more…] about Words on Death and Nourishment from the Salmon Spirit
Illness or Initiation?
I was listening to one of my current inspiritors, Michael Meade, and he said something that plunged into my depths and re- affirmed this very present conversation I am having with my healing around what is really underlying my pain and trauma.
In summary he says:
“when you experience a life event that shapes the way you view and act in the world, that takes a piece of you- like severe illness or injury, death of someone so close to you, or some external disaster that rips apart a prior foundation on which you based your life- your Soul views that threshold as a signal that an initiation is about to begin”.
It is not an error that you have been born
a sensitive human being,
with a tender nervous system
and a heart that is sometimes broken.
Your vulnerability is not a mistake,
but a portal back into life,
into a world that has forgotten
how to dream
~Matt Licata
Do your desires fall short of the horizon? Do your connections and presence with others waiver. Maybe you feel a mechanism wanting to orient you solidly on the Earth beneath your feet to walk in service. And a soul calling you forward but there is a fleeting quality when you get close enough to even begin articulating the contract… [Read more…] about Be of Service- Heal This…
“Deep fasting always involves suffering. It is physically difficult. It is often undertaken because we are suffering in our daily lives and we wish to heal ourselves… All of us have taken beliefs and spiritual attitudes into ourselves that are in conflict with who we are. The important thing is to allow yourself to empty, not just physically but also spiritually and emotionally”
~ Stephen Harrod Buhner
Spring is alive and calling parts of you back to life again. What is waking up inside of you? What do you still need to clear in order to hear your inner healer and heart song?Spring calls us to cleanse as we now have a deeper access to ourselves through what was composted and returned to the Earth in the Fall and Winter- that is if you were tuning in. And, if life goes whizzing by you regardless of the seasons this is a call for you to pay a little closer attention to your process, your emotions and your physical illnesses and imbalances.
Spring’s new energy can greatly amplify what truly wants to come to life and be shifted for the greater good within you. Thus it is the main season of cleansing and beginning to look at deeper levels of fasting.
HOWEVER MANY WILL FAIL OR CRASH THEIR CLEANSE. And, in truth you can never really fail as every moment of our lives is a teacher- especially our perceived failures and disappointments.
The above quote captures the deep reasons cleansing falls short of its intended results. Many want to cleanse as a quick fix path to an external destination. And, mini 3 day cleanses, even one day fasts are incredibly healing for short and long term health. But regardless of the duration of the cleanse if you are not integrating and creating space for the holistic journey and the cleanse -on all levels of soma and psyche -then inevitably you will feel more stuck and drained- and possibly re- traumatized post cleanse.
TRAUMATIZED? Yes. This is many layered and a piece that is vital to every one choosing to cleanse.
